What's wrong with me?

Nice title, huh? For those of you that know me, I know what you are thinking. What's wrong with you? Where do we begin, Kevin? I'll tell you what is wrong with me, I have spent my whole life, trying to do everything by myself. I tried to be a teenager myself, I tried to be a Marine by myself, I tried marriage by myself and I have tried several careers, yes, by myself. Why is it that I always think I know what is best for me? Did I make me? I am here solely because Jesus loves me. He wanted me here where I sit right now, for the sole purpose of worshiping Him. I spend so much of my life trying to figure out what it is I want. How can I get promoted at work. How can I afford a camper for my family. How can I ever afford to fix up my Jeep. How can I get Denny into hockey. How will I pay for Kody's next flight out here? Me, me , me. It just doesn't stop. Well, I am trying to stop today. Today I will try to let God make these decisions. I have failed doing it on my own, so what do I have to loose?