John

I must confess that I have not been studying. It never ceases to amaze me that, even though I know how much more at peace I am with everything around me when I am in the Word regularly, it is still a struggle to make time as often as I should. I thought that by doing this blog, I would be more apt to study my Bible. Unfortunately it has been almost two weeks since I have studied for my own heart and not to prepare for Life Group (my Bible study group.) Well, since God tells us to pick up our cross daily and follow him, I am once again saved by His grace. I have been in John for the last couple days. Today I was reading a prayer that Jesus prayed in chapter 17. Even knowing that he was to be arrested, beaten, spit on and eventually crucified, he starts His prayer "Father, the time has come. Glroify your Son so that your Son may glorify you."
I am so humbled that, in what would be the worst time in anyone's life, Jesus was still asking God to do whatever will glorify the Father.
I went through a time when my favorite song was "Jesus Bring Me Rain" by Mercy Me. For those that don't know it, the song talks about how ....if that's what it takes to bring you glory God, then bring me rain. I thought that it was a good idea to pray that prayer to God. I wanted to suffer for my Lord! Well, if you ever want a prayer answered, pray that one. God will gladly bring rain into your life.
Now, don't get me wrong, I love Jesus with all my heart and it is an honor to serve him, BUT c'mon, how much rain does it take? Forget I even said that, God, I don't even want to know how much!!!!
Seriously though, since I prayed that prayer my finances have been in the toilet (mostly due to my own poor decisions) I can't seem to catch a break on my schedule and get to have Sundays off, my promotion has been on hold for months because of the economy, my ex constantly threatens me with taking back to court for more support. I could go on and on. As you can see, a lot of my issues are financial. All I can say to that is I know that Satan hits you where you are weak. He knows what is going to make me sweat.
What I have to figure out is how to take what Satan uses to make me sweat and use it to glorify God. Time to pray!