Speed of Lifeo

It has been more than two week since I last blogged.  Amazing how much I miss it when I realize I have neglected it.  This is like therapy for me.  I also love the comments I get from people!
This has been a rough few weeks for me, nothing major, just life.  I have continued to read my Bible nearly every day since January 10.  The last few weeks have just been reading though,  I have not allowed it to really sink in.  It has felt so shallow.  As I look back, the last few weeks have been about me.  I have kept myself so busy that I have not allowed myself to really spend time with God.  You know what I really noticed, it became easier and easier to slip back into old habits.  Complacency, that is exactly my problem right now.  I think that is the most dangerous thing that can happen to a Christian.  If you just say once that "I will study later" or "I'm tired, I'm going to sleep in this week and I'll get to church next week."  Later becomes "I'll read extra tomorrow" and next week turns into "I really need to get some work done, I'll go to church next week.  I swear."  By the time you know it, so many things have crept into your life that God is a distant memory.  Is that how it is supposed to work.  I think I read something somewhere about first fruits.  We are to give God the best of what we have.  That means that it begins with our time and our heart.  I truly believe that if we do that, the rest will follow.  If I give Him the first fruits of my heart, it would only be natural for Him to get the first fruits of everything else in my life.  I'm trying God.  I just keep letting life creep in and become more important than death.  Your death.  I was always on your mind.  When your life got busy, you thought of me. When you were wrongfully accused, you thought of me.  When they spit on you, I was on your mind.  When you were beaten, it was me that passed through your mind.  When you were hung on a cross, You thought about me.  Right before you took your last breath, it was me that you thought about.
Why is it that I allow the speed of life to cause me to forget about you.  Forgive me.