Why

I love this time of year.  Stuff starting to bloom, cool mornings and warm afternoons.  I get up this morning and my son had weaseled his way into my bed during the night.  He was sick yesterday so I guess he deserves it.  I walk out into the living room and two of the most beautiful girls (my wife and daughter) are sleeping on the  couch.  The looked so peaceful.  I walk over and grind coffee, reach into a fridge stocked full of food and make some breakfast.  I sit down and read James 3-5.  What a beautiful way to start another beautiful day.  Why on earth, would anything ever stress me out.  God has blessed me far beyond what I deserve and far beyond what I ever imagined.  I deserve nothing yet His blessings flow daily.  There is no way to thank Him.  On top of that, He was willing to die because of my sins.  Tonight I was trying to tell my 3 year old daughter about loving others.  She does not yet understand what Jesus did, but I pray with all my heart that someday she will.
There are many people in this world who woke up in a shack with their whole family in the one room in the house.  There were many men that wondered how they would feed their family.  I hope that  some of those people know the joy that comes from knowing God.  The peace that comes from knowing that Jesus died on a cross for their sins, and did so willingly.  I don't know why I have so much and some have so little.  I don't know what I did to deserve so much.  I do know that Proverbs 3:5 says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding."  Why do I try to figure out why?